Pessimistic.

As jolly as I look , I am not really that optimistic when it comes 

to life . In fact , I’m 100 percent pessimistic . Growing up , I have 

gone through a lot of disappointments . Broken promises , failed 

missions and most of all  unreasonable expectations of people . 

I thought about thinking negatively so if ever I will fail , I won’t be 

disappointed anymore because I’m already expecting to fail while 

doing my best .

When I plan to do something or to engage myself in taking risks , 

I always think that I will fail , I won’t be able to pull it off because 

I am a weak . Until that day would come and happiness will shower 

because I did it . See what not expecting brings you to ?

When it comes to love , I think the same . In the back of my head , 

It’s just a mixed emotion of “HE WILL LEAVE ME SOON AND IT’S ALL 

GONNA BE MY FAULT” . When my partner says that “UHM, I WANNA 

TELL YOU SOMETHING” , I automatically jump to the conclusion 

that he’s gonna say that he’s in love with another girl or he’s 

leaving me because he doesn’t love me anymore only to find out 

that he’s gonna tell me that he forgot his surprise for me back 

home . A sudden relief comes crashing down on me like I have won 

a car in a pick to win a prize .

I just know that this personality helps me shield myself from pain 

and disappointments . I don’t see pessimism as a bad personality 

but instead , it’s a good one for me . Totally works .

keys off ~

as.da.name.given :)