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 “Deep inside, you hate yourself,” dia beritahu. 

Tak semena-mena.

“What?” aku soal semula. “Don’t be ridiculous.”

“Admit it,” dia masih tidak mahu mengalah.

“Admit what? I mean, why should I?” sambut aku.

“When you see other people, actually you don’t 

hate them but you hate yourself. You wish you are 

as happy as them. But the truth is you hate yourself 

more.”

“I hate you. You know me too well,” kata aku kepadanya.

 “It’s the denial. You know what, you’re such a misanthrope 

freak. Get a life. Go outside. Open your feeling. Tell them 

you’re not okay.” desak dia lagi.

“I don’t think so it will helps. I’m tired as hell trying. Nobody 

can fix me, I have a corrupted heart.” kata aku.

“You’re not as rotten as you think. Look around, they love you, 

like you, an inspiration to others. You appear to be lovely and 

bubbly that nobody can't help but just fall in love with you. 

Don’t you see it?” pujuk dia.

“I’m afraid you’re wrong. They don’t love me. They appear 

to be in love with me. Most people, they take things for 

granted. Eventually they will hate me, leave me.” aku 

membantah. 

“That’s okay. You need me now. You need help.”

Only the closest one can really understand me. I am quite a complicated creature. I don’t really understand myself sometimes. Lol :P

B A I K

Kawan-kawan,
Kita cuba jadi baik dengan semua orang, okay?
Kalau orang lempar taik pada kita, kita jangan marah. Kita ambil taik tu,
sapu lembut-lembut,rata-rata kat seluruh muka dia. Senyum dan cakap, 
"Taik ni lebih comel bila letak kat muka you."
Senyum sampai semut beratur dipinggir bibir. Baru dia percaya.

Kita cuba treat orang dengan berhemah, okay?
Kalau orang jeling kita, kita tenung je muka dia lama-lama. Bila dia resah,
kita datang dekat muka dia cakap, "Sexy sangat bila you jeling I macamtu..
tiba-tiba rasa 'bertanduk'.Sorrylah tenung you macamtu..tindakan refleks."
Senyum panjang-panjang. Takdelah dia terasa sangat. 

Kita cuba memudahkan hidup setiap orang, okay?
Kalau orang tu pernah gergaji hati kita, kita diam je. Bila dia tanya sakit ke 
tak, kita jawab, "Sakit. You tak penat ke main gergaji-gergaji hati I ni? Biarlah I 
buat sendiri, you duduk je diam-diam atas kerusi malas. I boleh buat sendiri, you 
tak payah susah-payah. Nanti kalau hati I dah lumat digergaji, I trade in dengan 
hati baru. Don’t worry lah, I ada lifetime membership card untuk tukar hati so 
sampai kiamat you boleh main gergaji-gergaji hati I."

Cium pipi dia, cakap terima kasih banyak-banyak. Jangan lupa senyum. 
Senyum je. Tak susah. Tarik pipi kanan. Tarik pipi kiri. Serentak.
Alolololo. Senyum pun nak kena buat tutorial. Manjalah you ni.

Mencuba nak jadi baik ni.
Baik kan?

Ala, tak payahlah jawab "A’ah”.
Malu I nak dengar.